PANDA EYES [black eyeliner, continued]

As promised, here is the continuation of my previous post. (And just for coming back, here’s my Instagram — take a glimpse into my world, with and without eyeliner.)

People always asked me why I wore my eyeliner the way I did. My default response was usually “because I do.” That was the truth. I didn’t wear it to rebel. I didn’t wear it to stand out. I painted my face the way chose, the way I liked. My black eyeliner was me.

Most people told me to stop hiding my beautiful face. Most people said I looked better without it. But I liked my face better with heavy black eyeliner. That was all that mattered. Honestly, the only reason I stopped wearing my thick eyeliner is because I knew, after college, I’d have to get a “big girl job” and in big girl world my panda eyes would be deemed unacceptable.

I can’t tell count how many times people said I looked like a raccoon, whether they said it to my face or whispered it in someone’s ear. I just wish people would have been more original with their attempted insults.

My friend Ajax (my given nickname to her) said I looked like a panda. That comment actually made me smile. You see, pandas are cute and our mutual friend Nani loves pandas. Nani passed her love of pandas on to me, the humanized panda.

I miss my panda eyes.

Not only were they my panda eyes–they were my pirate eyes, my Taylor Momsen eyes.

This past weekend I got my eyes back.

My boyfriend, my best friend and I went to see The Pretty Reckless at The Sandlot in Green Bay, Wisconsin. That was one of the best nights of my life. My love caught me a drumstick!

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Call me silly because I’ve never met Taylor Momsen, but she just might be my third favorite person. I mean just look at her rocking that stage.

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She looks about as happy as I was when I got my face back.

When Momsen knows she’s being photographed, she rarely smiles. People wonder why. I don’t, though. I think it’s the eyeliner.

somewhere in the title: black

I was going to do a post on the recent trends found on Twitter and Tumblr involving the hashtag black–which I’ll save for a future post–but I haven’t been able to leisure read for a while so I decided to look up some good reads to add to my list for when I have time, and if you enjoy reading too, perhaps you can add them to yours. Naturally, they have the word “black” somewhere in the title.

The first interesting read I found was a book from author Robert M. Drake. The book is called Black Butterfly.

It contains a collection of experiences and memories of Drake’s life after one of his brothers died. “The black butterfly is a symbol for the transformation of rebirth after death.”

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Another book is The Black Veil by T.J. Charles.

Chyna has it all: a good modeling career, a caring brother, a romance with a multimillionaire, but, she is having reoccuring nightmares of her dead mother and suspicion that things aren’t what they seem. And she is soon faced with life or death situations when the dangerous nature of
her reality sets in.blackveil_bookAnd if you haven’t heard about it by now, for whatever reason, perhaps you should. I’ve seen both seasons of the show and am counting down the days until June 12th when the third season is released on Netflix, but I have yet to read the book. Of course I could only be referring to the #1 New York Times Bestselling memoir by Piper KermanOrange is the New Black: My Year in a Woman’s Prison.

Kerman writes about her transition from civilian life to inmate life when she had to serve a fifteen month sentence after a crime from her past caught up to her. She also writes why so many women get sent to prison and what happens to them while they’re there.
orangeisthenewblack_bookOf course these are only three of many good reads with “black” in the title. I encourage you to search Amazon.com or goodreads.com, or whatever other site, and let me know if you find any other interesting books with “black” in the title. Or if you just know of some, let me know and then I can add them to this post or a future post.